In reply to Irishman's post #70 :-)
"My biggest hurdle to overcome in Christian belief is the idea of heaven or hell. The idea in the "Matrix" movies that making life appear too good was not believable or desired by humans resonated strongly with me. It seems that heaven would be a pretty dull place after a while. Similarly, no matter how bad hell is surely you would become desensitized after a few eons or so.
How to reconcile this?,it seems to me that human life right now is closer to heaven than any idealised version, maybe this is heaven and we relive it over and over and get to experience all the good and bad lifestyles, pausing once in a while in the afterlife to consider the sum total of our experiences before trying a new one?(getting born again and living a new life).
Another concept that seems crazy to me is time and matter, where did all this stuff come from, and when did it start, the idea that it came from nothing seems daft to me but yet i cannot deny its existence.
So while at a certain level religion seems preposterous to me, then so does everyday life which is pretty hard to rule out the existence of!"
My own path was not dissimilar - teenage skepticism, training as a scientist, a burst of new age courses, a broken marriage...
Finally ended up immersed in "A Course in Miracles" (google) which made a lot of sense of the preceding chaos. It states that the entire phenomenological world is a dream: a dream that we are all separate for each other, and from our creator. As Neo says in one scene - shot in Melbourne - "They/we don't want to wake up". It states that really we can only experience two emotions - love or fear, and depending on which we chose, a world of dreams arises that depicts our choice. Mostly its fear; nuclear war, peak oil, ghenghis khan, iraq, various genocides- the list goes on.. All arising from a desire to be autonomous, self sufficient and disenfranchised from God. And hell, being defined as a place where God isn't, becomes what this world appears to be. The book itself then takes us through a series of lesson, one per day for 365 days, that are quite profound, and deal with how we block and limit Love, and thus attempt to block and limit the God who created love. Interestingly, many of the concepts used are similar to ancient eastern/chinese thinking (non - dualism).
The Course itself is published in many languages, including Mandarin. So I took my lady a copy, and read it alongside my english one. Very kindly, she humours me; it will be interesting to see how it unfolds. Much of the Course was written in iambic pentameter (Shakespearian blank verse) so if nothing else it will help her english, and, more importantly, improve my capacity to refrain from judgement :-)